Personal Moral

This talks about very serious and personal stuff about me.

The moral that really resinates with me and means a lot on a personal level is from Do Princesses Dream of Magic Sheep.

Luna must learn that the only thing she is accomplishing by constantly mentally punishing herself is psychological torture.  She has to accept that, yes she did a horrible thing.  But that doesn't define who she is unless she lets it.  While she shouldn't just pretend it never happened or it wasn't a big deal, she needs to be able to move on.  She shouldn't feel like she should be punished and never have good dreams every night. 

I have done something really bad in my past.  Late March-early April in 2014.  The abridged version is that My horrible relationship with my dad eventually lead me to do something with horrible intentions. I was hospitalized for for about 2 weeks.  Since then through a lot of therapy and talking my relationship with my father has dramatically gotten better. Its hard to believe that less than 2 years ago i wanted to do do something awful to him.

It is so hard to not berate myself for this.  It took my a long time.  In fact the episode premiered right on time when I was really starting to finally move on.  Im not talking about with my dad.  We had already made huge steps in rebuilding our relationship.  I was starting to move on mentally.  It's so hard to know that I tried to do this to him.  But I need to know that we now have a much better relationship and understand that i was in a horrible mental state at that point.  

This moral really meant so much to me.