I find myself coming back here...

It's almost been six years since I joined the kommunity, and I've been very much an on/off member, especially since I moved out two years ago.

This was a place I went when I was a teenager, when I was in a bad place in my life and I gained a lot from it. I got to know a lot of new people, built some very meaningful friendships. This was also the place I met the man I dated for over four years, the man I lived with for two and a half years, the man I was engaged to for seven months.

And now I find, that going back here reminds me of him, of who I was when I met him, a completely different person than who I am today.

There's no bad feelings between us, maybe there's no feelings at all, about a month ago I watched him get on a train, knowing that it would be the last time I ever saw him, and I didn't feel sad, I felt relieved more than anything.

Maybe I'll start coming back here more, maybe I'll stop coming here at all, I'm not quite sure yet, but no matter what, this place will forever be the reason I met him, and that's a thing I won't be able to forget.

I'm okay, I'm good even, sometimes life just happens and people turn out to be someone other than you thought they were. Now it's time for me to find myself again, to be someone I want to be.

- Sidsel

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Comment by Jaymie Nunnery (Jayameez Cat) on January 9, 2017 at 8:18pm: I've only been on here a little over a year. But I find that this Kommunity feels like a safe place. Very familiar, comfortable.... If other social media sites/public forums are getting to me, I tend to find myself back here. If I have been gone too long I really miss it. So hopefully, you will just KEEP finding yourself coming back here, and you will make more and different... maybe more fond memories.

Comment by Cecil (Verginix) on January 9, 2017 at 8:03am: I think what I've learned from these comments is that you're all lovely people, and Gumbo has way too much black-mail material on me.

I feel like I should be more worried about that last one...

K-Mod Comment by Kevin (UniSeal) on December 15, 2016 at 9:30pm: Hang in there, Sidsel. We're happy to have you whenever you want to stop by.

K-Mod Comment by Victoria (Centauromadoose) on December 14, 2016 at 4:49pm: It's good to hear from you again, Sid, if not necessarily under the best circumstances. There is still a lot of journeying ahead. I hope it treats you well.

Comment by Pam desk (Tweakeet) on December 14, 2016 at 12:35pm: Being one's best (mythical or otherwise) is a continuous journey, not a destination; Enjoy the voyage and don't stress out. Like the poster says: https://store.dftba.com/products/about-the-test-poster

K-Mod Comment by Gumbo123 on December 14, 2016 at 11:00am: P.S. - - since you're looking for a "fresh start" perhaps you might update your profile pic. Here's a couple of my personal favorites from the archives . . .

sorry, I cannot help myself

K-Mod Comment by Gumbo123 on December 14, 2016 at 10:49am: Welkomm Home! glad you are okay (even good) and hope to "see" you around the Kommunity much more often in the future.

Give us an update on schooling and life in general, too.